Starting around September 2007 I've been all out crazy. It started with work and boss woes. I went through the ups and downs of job responsibilities changing and dealt with a performance improvement plan (PIP) that I completed successfully (sarcastic 'yay.'), but the entire time I was doing it I felt it was complete and utter bullshit. Don't get me wrong, I learned a lot about politics and diplomacy in the corporate world during this process, but still how can a company redefine an entire department and its qualifications without a percentage of the people failing miserably? So in April of 2008 when I was four months pregnant and my company was going through yet another down-sizing, my husband and I made the decision for me to take a severance package. You see, I was at-risk of being laid-off with my history of a PIP and all and a voluntary departure would benefit us so much better than an involuntary situation. It was an incredibly hard thing to go through; dealing with the emotions of pregnancy and the fear of unemployment. I worked my last day during my sixth month of pregnancy. Friends encouraged me to apply for work with this enormous belly hanging off the front of me telling me stories of different people they knew who'd gotten job offers at eight months pregnant, but I was a realist and knew that was improbable. Regardless, I applied to jobs and got called for interviews. There is likely NOTHING more humbling than walking into a job interview to see the realization on the faces of those doing the hiring that they'd wasted their time on me. The eyes went straight to my stomach and then the forced smile and eye contact began. I'd walk out every time with less confidence and pride as I'd walked in with. Thus begins my life as a "kept woman" a.k.a. a SAHM a.k.a. mommy. The timeline went like this:
- January 2008 - Found out I was pregnant
- March 2008 - Chose to leave job I'd spent eight and a half years at
- June 2008 - Worked my last day at that company
- June-July 2008 - Applied and interviewed for jobs
- August 2008 - Ate bonbons and watched my stories
- September 2008 - Accepted God's blessing and became a mom. Wow!
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